A Big Blue Room

Ever have one of those days where there's an endless string of to-do's; you attend to one thing only to uncover you must do something else, at which point you realize a third thing must be done...

I've had one of those summers. I'm disoriented and my life has been a whirlwind of tasks and topics, many of which I'm not thrilled about.

I took a late afternoon nap today; the kind where you sink right into the bed and the glow of the late afternoon sun seeps through your window in a thin sliver on your ankle. The color of the sun is pleasant and tired at the same time; soothing to the point where it will soon nap just as you are. While lying there, I closed my eyes and each time I began drifting into sleep, I thought of pending matters; items on my 'to-do' list just creeping into my subconscious. I vowed to let them go-for then-not altogether. But I needed just a quick rest; a reprieve and a silent and thoughtless reverie where the problems and all "close the loop" issues just didn't exist for a minute.

I couldn't do it. I kept thinking of these things as I drifted away and my heart started beating faster. It seemed these tasks were looming over me; their memory somehow penetrating me even in my subconscious mind as if a door was left ajar.

I decided to envision a room. A big, empty room-no furniture, no nothing-that was entirely blue. This hue was pacifying and helped me, if only for a minute, to forget my problems. It helped me "lock" them outside the door ensuring that however long I'd like to stay in this room, they were sure not to cross that door.